CASSIE- LONG WAY TO GO <3
i lurve this song and shut up and driveee. :D
YESTERDAY WAS (one of) THE BEST DAY(s) OF MY LIFEE!
because i finally found a shop that actually sells MY SIZE CLOTHES. for the first time in my life, i found clothes that fit me, and that are also TIGHT FOR ME CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.
that's why,
I LOVE MANGO SOO MUCH.
i bought skinny corduroys(don't know how to spell!) and a fabulous black topp!
i feel so guilty for spending so much as well, so we decided no shopping until next year may (sis' b'day)
and i'm gonna officially PUT ON MY BRACES on september 5th! FOR TWO YEARS, so i'll be having gorgeous teeth bythetime i go to JC, i seriously can't imagine my face without my UGLY TEETH. yayness (: though it costs like FOUR THOUSAND dollars each for both my sis and i ): that's the sad part. sighhhhhh.
BUT I FEEL ELATED ALL THE SAME CAUSE I LOVE MANGO. ahah.
loadsa things happened in my life lately! i will spend, AT MOST one hour and then get back to studying :/
FIRST OF ALL.
tuesday. mom and i went shopping, and i bought a puma shirt and jacket. I ALREADY HAD THREE JACKETS BUT WHO CARES! i think i'm jacket crazy, but i couldn't get to keep it! because then we went to giordano and i had to choose between the skinny jeans and the jacket. i went with the skinny jeans. sad ):
national day, haha it was funner than last year's at least! it was kinda long and dreary, esp the sec fours fashion parade, but one of the classes played DANCING QUEEN as their background, and azira rachel and i were grooooving to the beat hahaha. we came up with oldie steps. fun!
then it was OVER. saw anu and ashima, anu was tom's girl haha. anu didn't look too good. are you okay anu? :)
okay then rachel amelia tisha and i went outtt! taka. rhub didn't come cause she values colours award more than her friends. hahaha. we were teasing her!
then we left, in 190. outside taka we all bought ice cream. amelia's and tisha's was so DRIPPY. rachel's and mine was okay but i have very sensitive gums, the ice cream was so COLD AND PAINFUL, so i threw it away! at least i ate half. :D
we were starvingggg! so we went to kfc and i ate cheese fries. ohhh soooo cheeesy..... i think i felt quite sick of eating aaallll thaatt CHEESE! haha.
we went to art friend, WOW THAT PLACE HAS EVERYTHING!!! AND WE SAW THESE CUTEEEE STUFFED TOYS, WITH HUMONGOUS LEGS COMPARED TO THEIR BODY! so cute okay! we took manymany pics with them. but RACHEL FORGOT TO STORE THEM. except amelia's one, which i smartly remembered to! we decided that we would come back and taake the pics again after looking through the whole shop.
then we found these spongy cutouts thingys [i have no idea what they are] and i found a tiara! so i put it on my head, giving a 'i'm daddy's princess!' kind of look, and rachel was about to snap the pictureeeee, was snapping it..... but then the shopkeeper came D: and he was like 'y'all very daring is it, you're not supposed to take picture in any shop in singapore. you can go to jail, no food you know, yada yada...' so we were like sorry sorry sorry sorryyyy! and put back the stuff and went away.
and we were sooooo disappointed because we couldn't get any more pictures! ): so we looked around awhile, and rach and i had to leave, amelia and tisha continued looking for stuff for bio pt. and i walked ALL THE WAY FROM TAKA TO FAR EAST, all because i didn't want to take the bus from this secluded-looking busstop. it was SO FAAR. should've listened to rachel!
and pluss i had this muscle pull which was SUPER painful, and i still have to walk weirdly, and i CAN'T RUN ): i can't even put my weight on the right side of my butt. painnn ):
anyway, i got home. and went to dinner for roopali's birthday :D shivali talked to me about the subject combi i should take, and my mother wants me to take lit! but i'm like sooooo not good at lit. ): anyway, if i become a nurse (which my aunt suggests me to become :D) my humans subject WON'T MATTER! (:
haha anyway roopali came and we ate cheeesy fondueee more cheese! it was nicee.
after dinner we went to play at the FOUNTAINS, omg SO FUN OKAY. i would've not minded getting drenched all the way, but i was wearing new jeans ): but i got drenched anyway! :D so fun! walking throughhh the fountains, and i wanted a picture taken badd! and we did, but didn't come out too well (:
then i met mr macdonald and gave him a ^5! no i'm not mad, i took a picture (: with roopali though. then we listened to music on roopali's mp3. send me rihanna's that lalala and beyonce and jayz upgrade you please! :D they're nice!
and HOME SWEET HOME AND crash into bed.
yesterday i did up my BIO JOURNAL it looks all pretty now (: and mom, sis and i went ShOPPING AGAIN! bought glow-in-the-dark nail polish (: COOL RIGHT.
and today, MATHSSSSSS AND BIO PTTTTTTTTT ): but first, here are some pictures i took of JEANIE! she was sitting on my table and the wind was bloooowingg at her, so i grabbed the nearest webcam and snapped awayy!
this first one! she looked away ):
the second one she was looking in front, but cannot see her face!
i like the third one best (: looking right.
OMG THIS ONE IS HILARIOUS! that's her BUTT! haha! she turned around to sniff something and the wind was blowing HARD so i took that awesome ppicture!
hahahahah. the last two were failed attempts (:
so THAT'S ALL FOR THIS FABULOUS LONG POST (:
loove, nandita.
The scene dissolved, and before Harry knew it, re-formed around him. He was now in a small thicket of trees. He could see a sunlit river glittering through their trunks. The shadows cast by the trees made a basin of cool green shade. Two children sat facing each other, cross-legged on the ground. Snape had removed his coat now; his odd smock looked less pecular in the half light.
“…and the Ministry can punish you if you do magic outside school, you get letters.”
“But I have done magic outside school!”
“We’re all right. We haven’t got wands yet. They let you off when you’re a kid and you can’t help it. But once you’re eleven,” he nodded importantly, “and they start training you, then you’ve got to go careful.”
There was a little silence. Lily had picked up a fallen twig and twirled it in the air, and Harry knew that she was imagining sparks trailing from it. Then she dropped the twig, leaned in toward the boy, and said, “It is real, isn’t it? It’s not a joke? Petunia says you’re lying to me. Petunia says there isn’t a Hogwarts. It is real, isn’t it?”
“It’s real for us,” said Snape. “Not for her. But we’ll get the letter, you and me.”
“Really?” whispered Lily.
“Definitely,” said Snape, and even with his poorly cut hair and his odd clothes, he struck an oddly impressive figure sprawled in front of her, brimful of confidence in his destiny.
“And will it really come by owl?” Lily whispered.
“Normally,” said Snape. “But you’re Muggle-born, so someone from the school will have to come and explain to your parents.”
“Does it make a difference, being Muggle-born?”
Snape hesitated. His black eyes, eager in the greenish gloom, moved over the pale face, the dark red hair.“No,” he said. “It doesn’t make any difference.”
“Good,” said Lily, relaxing. It was clear that she had been worrying.
“You’ve got loads of magic,” said Snape. “I saw that. All the time I was watching you…”His voice trailed away; she was not listening, but had stretched out on the leafy ground and was looking up at the canopy of leaves overhead. He watched her as greedily as he had watched her in the playground.
“How are things at your house?” Lily asked.
A little crease appeared between his eyes.“Fine,” he said.
“They’re not arguing anymore?”
“Oh yes, they’re arguing,” said Snape. He picked up a fistful of leaves and began tearing them apart, apparently unaware of what he was doing. “But it won’t be that long and I’ll be gone.”
“Doesn’t your dad like magic?”
“He doesn’t like anything, much,” said Snape.
“Severus?”
A little smile twisted Snape’s mouth when she said his name.
“Yeah?”
“Tell me about the dementors again.”
“What d’you want to know about them for?”
“If I use magic outside school – ”
“They wouldn’t give you to the dementors for that! Dementors are for people who do really bad stuff. They guard the wizard prison, Azkaban. You’re not going to end up in Azkaban, you’re too – ”
He turned red again and shredded more leaves. Then a small rustling noise behind Harry made him turn: Petunia, hiding behind a tree, had lost her footing.
“Tuney!” said Lily, surprise and welcome in her voice, but Snape had jumped to his feet.
“Who’s spying now?” he shouted. “What d’you want?”
Petunia was breathless, alarmed at being caught. Harry could see her struggling for something hurtful to say.
“What is that you’re wearing, anyway?” she said, pointing at Snape’s chest. “Your mum’s blouse?”
There was a crack. A branch over Petunia’s head had fallen. Lily screamed. The branch caught Petunia on the shoulder, and she staggered backward and burst into tears.
“Tuney!”But Petunia was running away. Lily rounded on Snape.
“Did you make that happen?”
“No.” He looked both defiant and scared.
“You did!” She was backing away from him. “You did! You hurt her!”
“No – no, I didn’t!”
But the lie did not convince Lily. After one last burning look, she ran from the little thicket, off after her sister, and Snape looked miserable and confused…
And the scene dissolved once more…Harry was standing right behind Snape as they faced the candlelit House tables, lined with rapt faces. Then Professor McGonagall said, “Evans, Lily!”
He watched his mother walk forward on trembling legs and sit down upon the rickety stool. Professor McGonagall dropped the Sorting Hat onto her head, and barely a second after it had touched the dark red hair, the hat cried, “Gryffindor!”
Harry heard Snape let out a tiny groan. Lily took off the hat, handed it back to Professor McGonagall, then hurried toward the cheering Gryffindors, but as she went she glanced back at Snape, and there was a sad little smile on her face. Harry saw Sirius move up the bench to make room for her. She took one look at him, seemed to recognize him from the train, folded her arms, and firmly turned her back on him.The roll call continued. Harry watched Lupin, Pettigrew, and his father join Lily and Sirius at the Gryffindor table. At last, when only a dozen students remained to be sorted, Professor McGonagall called Snape.
Harry walked with him to the stool, watched him place the hat upon his head.
“Slytherin!” cried the Sorting Hat.
And Severus Snape moved off to the other side of the Hall, away from Lily, to where the Slytherins were cheering him, to where Lucius Malfoy, a prefect badge gleaming upon his chest, patted Snape on the back as he sat down beside him…
And the scene changed…
Lily and Snape were walking across the castle courtyard, evidently arguing. Harry hurried to catch up with them, to listen in. As he reached them, he realized how much taller they both were. A few years seemed to have passed since their Sorting.“…thought we were supposed to be friends?” Snape was saying, “Best friends?”“We are, Sev, but I don’t like some of the people you’re hanging round with! I’m sorry, but I detest Avery and Mulciber! Mulciber! What do you see in him, Sev, he’s creepy! D’you know what he tried to do to Mary Macdonald the other day?”Lily had reached a pillar and leaned against it, looking up into the thin, sallow face.“That was nothing,” said Snape. “It was a laugh, that’s all – ”“It was Dark Magic, and if you think that’s funny – ”“What about the stuff Potter and his mates get up to?” demanded Snape. His color rose again as he said it, unable, it seemed, to hold in his resentment.“What’s Potter got to do with anything?” said Lily.“They sneak out at night. There’s something weird about that Lupin. Where does he keep going?”“He’s ill,” said Lily. “They say he’s ill – ”“Every month at the full moon?” said Snape.“I know your theory,” said Lily, and she sounded cold. “Why are you so obsessed with them anyway? Why do you care what they’re doing at night?”“I’m just trying to show you they’re not as wonderful as everyone seems to think they are.”The intensity of his gaze made her blush.“They don’t use Dark Magic, though.” She dropped her voice. “And you’re being really ungrateful. I heard what happened the other night. You went sneaking down that tunnel by the Whomping Willow, and James Potter saved you from whatever’s down there – ”Snape’s whole face contorted and he spluttered, “Saved? Saved? You think he was playing the hero? He was saving his neck and his friends’ too! You’re not going to – I won’t let you – ”“Let me? Let me?”Lily’s bright green eyes were slits. Snape backtracked at once.“I didn’t m ean – I just don’t want to see you made a fool of – He fancies you, James Potter fancies you!” The words seemed wrenched from him against his will. “And he’s not…everyone thinks…big Quidditch hero – ” Snape’s bitterness and dislike were rendering him incoherent, and Lily’s eyebrows were traveling farther and farther up her forehead.“I know James Potter’s an arrogant toerag,” she said, cutting across Snape. “I don’t need you to tell me that. But Mulciber’s and Avery’s idea of humor is just evil. Evil, Sev. I don’t understand how you can be friends with them.”Harry doubted that Snape had even heard her strictures on Mulciber and Avery. The moment she had insulted James Potter, his whole body had relaxed, and as they walked away there was a new spring in Snape’s step…The scene changed…“I’m sorry.”“I’m not interested.”“I’m sorry!”“Save your breath”It was nighttime. Lily, who was wearing a dressing gown, stood with her arms folded in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady, at the entrance to Gryffindor Tower.“I only came out because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.”“I was. I would have done. I never meant to call you Mudblood, it just – ”“Slipped out?” There was no pity in Lily’s voice. “It’s too late. I’ve made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends – you see, you don’t even deny it! You don’t even deny that’s what you’re all aiming to be! You can’t wait to join You-Know-Who, can you?”He opened his mouth, but closed it without speaking.“I can’t pretend anymore. You’ve chosen your way, I’ve chosen mine.”“No – listen, I didn’t mean – ”“ – to call me Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?”He struggled on the verge of speech, but with a contemptuous look she turned and climbed back through the portrait hole…Snape was wringing his hands. He looked a little mad, with his straggling black hair flying around him.“I – I come with a warning – no, a request – please – ”Dumbledore flicked his wand. Though leaves and branches still flew through the night air around them, silence fell on the spot where he and Snape faced each other.“What request could a Death Eater make of me?”“The – the prophecy…the prediction…Trelawney…”“Ah, yes,” said Dumbledore. “How much did you relay to Lord Voldemort?”“Everything – everything I heard!” said Snape. “That is why – it is for that reason – he thinks it means Lily Evans!”“The prophecy did not refer to a woman,” said Dumbledore. “It spoke of a boy born at the end of July – ”“You know what I mean! He thinks it means her son, he is going to hunt her down – kill them all – ”“If she means so much to you,” said Dumbledore, “surely Lord Voldemort will spare her? Could you not ask for mercy for the mother, in exchange for the son?”“I have – I have asked him – ”“You disgust me,” said Dumbledore, and Harry had never heard so much contempt in his voice. Snape seemed to shrink a little, “You do not care, then, about the deaths of her husband and child? They can die, as long as you have what you want?”Snape said nothing, but merely looked up at Dumbledore.“Hide them all, then,” he croaked. “Keep her – them – safe. Please.”“And what will you give me in return, Severus?”“In – in return?” Snape gaped at Dumbledore, and Harry expected him to protest, but after a long moment he said, “Anything.”
“Karkaroff’s Mark is becoming darker too. He is panicking, he fears retribution; you know how much help he gave the Ministry after the Dark Lord fell.” Snape looked sideways at Dumbledore’s crooked-nosed profile. “Karkaroff intends to flee if the Mark burns.”“Does he?” said Dumbledore softly, as Fleur Delacour and Roger Davies came giggling in from the grounds. “And are you tempted to join him?”“No,” said Snape, his black eyes on Fleur’s and Roger’s retreating figures. “I am not such a coward.”“No,” agreed Dumbledore. “You are a braver man by far than Igor Karkaroff. You know, I sometimes think we Sort too soon…”He walked away, leaving Snape looking stricken…
Dumbledore opened his eyes. Snape looked horrified.“You have kept him alive so that he can die at the right moment?”
“Don’t be shocked, Severus. How many men and women have you watched die?”
“Lately, only those whom I could not save,” said Snape. He stood up. “You have used me.”
“Meaning?”
“I have spied for you and lied for you, put myself in mortal danger for you. Everything was supposed to be to keep Lily Potter’s son safe. Now you tell me you have been raising him like a pig for slaughter – ”
“But this is touching, Severus,” said Dumbledore seriously. “Have you grown to care for the boy, after all?”
“For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!”From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
“After all this time?”
“Always,” said Snape.
And next, Snape was kneeling in Sirius’s old bedroom. Tears were dripping from the end of his hooked nose as he read the old letter from Lily. The second page carried only a few words:
could ever have been friends with Gellert Grindelwald.
I think her mind’s going, personally!
Lots of love,
Lily
Snape took the page bearing Lily’s signature, and her love, and tucked it inside his robes. Then he ripped in two the photograph he was also holding, so that he kept the part from which Lily laughed, throwing the portion showing James and Harry back onto the floor, under the chest of drawers…
I finished reading Deathly Hallows yesterday.
Everytime someone mentioned who died or what happened in the last book i would always stop them, because i wanted the pleasure of reading the book myself.
it's absurd that people can think harry potter as childish or bad or evil or whatever. anyone who doesn't read harry potter is so deprived. there's nothing wrong about it, or childish, but the book is so insightful and makes you FEEL. and you know i will never forget it, as long as i live. especially snape. SNAPE.
And now, i've finished it. And it doesn't matter anymore who died or who survived, it matters why they did.
i cried for Dobby because he sacrificed his life for harry. he just died, like that!
i hated that fred and tonks and lupin die. fred was so funny, funny how he can do such a grim thing as die. tonks and lupin were so happy too, they even had a baby and everything!
and snape. OOH SNAPE.
but actually, i REALLY LOVE snape. snape, according to me, no matter what others say, was nobler than dumbledore or harry or whoever put together. he loved lily for so long so badly, and he deserved much more than what he got.
the part where harry sees all of snape's memories was the saddest part of the book. i cried when snape did when he saw lily's letter. he loved her so much! he sacrificed his life for her, and if a person such as severus snape really did exist, i don't mind dying for him even! i actually really love snape. really love.
sigh. he did it all for love. he loved her so much! i felt so sad for him, and i wish he had married lily. he became good in the end didn't he! she should have married him. sigh SIGH SIGH.
anyone who hasn't read the book, read it at least for the sake of SNAPE SNAPE SNAPE.
it doesn't matter how snape looks and he's so disgusting but from the start, from young he loved lily so much. how could lily not have known? ARGH.
SNAPE. it's not obsession, i think i really love this man! how funny it is. i don't think anyone would have thought of snape as more than dumbledore's man.